It’s been a challenging last 30ish days. I’m as busy as I was at work prior to the holidays, if not more and my home life is busier than ever while we gear up for house league hockey playoffs. My work schedule has been all over the place the last month too with extra 6am shifts, and result in me going 2 weeks straight of waking up for 5am. Add to the fact sleep has not been easy the last month either. I’m so busy during the day my mind will not shut off at night. My body is exhausted, and my brain is just as exhausted, but it will not shut off, when it does and I am able to fall asleep, I don’t stay asleep the whole night. I can’t remember the last time I had a full night sleep without waking up.
Add to the exhaustion, it’s my time of the month approaching. My emotions have been higher than normal, likely due to exhaustion. I’ve spent the last 2 days sobbing and tears rolling down my face because I’m so frustrated with everything. I’m tired of being tired and feeling the way I’m feeling and my usual escape, working out, hasn’t been possible because of the pure exhaustion I’ve been feeling the last 30 days. The intense hockey schedule is winding down and I anticipate my weekdays being open again, just in time for soccer season to start, at least my daughter is old enough to be dropped off at practice so I can hit the gym or run errands so it will be different.
I finally managed to get some much needed sleep this weekend. I’m feeling refreshed and ready to tackle the week. We had beautiful spring like weather in Ottawa the last couple of days and I wanted to get out and walk over lunch but roads are extremely narrow after our 25cm snowfall on Saturday but I did get a quick workout in today so that’s a positive. I’m still catching up on sleep and am already starting to feel ready for bed, hoping I sleep well despite the energy drink I had prior to my workout. Hoping I manage to sleep all night so I’ve got the energy to hit the gym at 5am tomorrow, I skipped last week using the mini snowstorm as an excuse but it’s time to start getting back into a 4 day minimum workout routine.
It’s important to take time for yourself. For me, going to the gym is my me time. I need to make the effort to take the time for me and work it into my busy schedule. All the snow we’ve been getting this year has been keeping me from the gym on my free days. I need to take the no excuses mentality from now on, I’m starting to undo all the progress I’ve been making by doing half assed workouts and not sticking to any nutrition plan. I need to keep telling myself I’m important too.
